heads in the clouds

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-17T22:47:00

2008-11-17T14:46:37Z

FFTD:
- 4 mini buns
- bento set from marketplace
- HOMEMADE liang mian
- random fruit

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got two new b&j's tees in pink and blue. awesome. currently having an inner battle whether i should a)grab some food or b)exercise or c)do neither. urghh. but i'm so awfully fat now, i think i should choose b.

[edit]
i think i am going to end up doing a. rawrs. plan tomorrow: run, buy kfc breakfast, do down for work (doing the first hour alone!!! evil consumers please STAY AT HOME OR YOUR OFFICES.)

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-16T20:48:00

2008-11-16T12:45:16Z

FFTD:
- loi mai kai
- red bean pancake
- oyako rice burger
- chicken + char siew rice
- scoop of strawberry cheesecake
- green tea

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the new oyaku rice burger from mos is quite nice! i shall eat it for breakfast tommorrow. the only issue is i need to internally battle if i want to get fries along with it every time i queue for it. and also the konnakyu jelly drink. am getting better at waking up early. hope tommorrow i will be right on time for my shift. going to watch 舞林大道 while studying 3204. i am scheduled to finish it tommorrow. O M GEE. wish me luck.

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-15T22:40:00

2008-11-15T14:54:44Z

FFTD:
- 1/2 a can of alphabet soup
- 1 bagel with jam/kaya/peanut butter
- HOMECOOK DINS!!! (bak kut teh/soya chicken/veges/salmon & tofu w rice)
- wang wang x 3
- green tea
- 1 banana with peanut butter

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going to sleep early today. xx.

currently reading: <<想你，２４小时不打烊。。。>>

2008-11-14T18:25:24Z

FFTD:
- wonton noodles
- assortment of bread rolls
- an onigiri
- a cup of apple wheatgrass juice
- a cup of green tea

i was thinking, as i opened my second onigiri, what i would do if i dropped it. (because i was really hungry.) and guess what? the next thing i knew, i DROPPED it on the floor. my internal OS went wtf. my mind is a strange psychic thing. picked up THREE chinese books to read along with two english ones. i finally found the book which talks about love stories happening in 7-11! i am onto the second story, which is pretty awesome! i will probably find out only tomorrow if the female protagonist, a 7-11 cashier, managed to talk to the guy of her dreams who is a common customer of the shop. in the story, she rambles about idiotic customers (henceforth referred to as I.C.) which i CAN FULLY EMPATHIZE WITH!!! AWESOMENESS!!!

i had a series of I.C. today when i started my shift. the first one told me that he wanted his two scoops of icecream together but insisted that he asked for it to be separately served after i handed him his order. he even gave me the "tsk!" face! the second woman came in and asked me if she could get a half-half - she wanted two flavours in a scoop of icecream. obviously that wasn't possible. but GUESS WHAT SHE DID? she started whining "but i got it the other time i came hereeeeeeeeeeeee! two other girls did it for meeeeeeeeeeeeee!" my internal OS went OH EMM GEE. it was quite horrible facing a woman who is probably in her late 20s whining and acting cute to me. in the end, i gave her what she wanted, only to shut her up. there were other awful people, but i can't remember what they made me do. but the series of I.C. put me in quite a mood so early into the shift. i was lucky after that though. as the day progressed, the people got nicer! so it kinda went up!

okay i need to sleep now. it's the transition from closing to opening shift. i can start studying tommorrow! so exciting. oh and the manager gave some of us a coupon to redeem a free pint. the coupon is like 100% customized with our names on it sommore. AWESOME! i am still thinking of what combination of icecream to put inside! haha.

sidenote: MG! i got 3 $5 vouchers for you to redeem the B&J's i owe you at your own free will! (you can get 3 small cups with it or 1 pint or even a banana split! or belgium waffle with two cookies! how awesome is that! in case, you have like binging urges during this tough period.) hahaha. will give your next set like after the papers. remind me to pass to you before/after the paper on sat.

side side note: i can write you a list of combinations of stuff you can get from your set of vouchers if you ask very nicely. or give me tips for exams. HAHA. i kid.

week 13e

2008-11-13T19:14:08Z

AWESOMENESS! completed my very last assignment for the semester. i guess 60% of my grades is probably set in stone now. and 100% for 2243. well... i can only wish for the best. now, it's back to proper sleeping timings and proper diet. maybe even exercise. wowee!

did someone mention studying for the exams? -_-"

[edit]flea & easy on sunday @ j-j-jouk. who wants to go!!!

Week 13c

2008-11-12T18:45:05Z

today wasn't so bad. i was gearing myself up for annoyingcustomers.com but it turns out that it was error 422 (or is it 242? 244? 424??!?!? whatever, you get me idea la huh.) i mean, there were the usual suspects but it could be worse. so yep .^ ^ IT1001 is over over over! (with the exception for the exams). HAPPY! *IS BLISS* i don't know why the tutor is being so uptight about our project when others were clearly being more boring. BUT AIYO, whatever la. i think the group was most harmonious today. probably bred out of sheer happiness at the end of the torture. (THOUGH I CAUGHT MICHIE GIVING THE WTF LOOK AT TIMES HUH, BITCHIE MICHIE! lol!) one last piece of assignment before it is pure studying time for the exams and then december holidays. this is so weird. life is zooming by us, where did 2008 go? anyway, i did like my first closing shift WITHOUT a senior nor the manager around. it was damn stressing. i didn't know how to put it across to the other girl to, you know, WORK FASTER in cleaning up because it sounds rude no matter how i tried to phrase it in my head. plus, i am often in an awkward position because i am supposed to be like the most inexperienced one since i am from the lastest batch of scoopers but i am also the oldest in terms of age and i also have a prior experience in vivo, so i often don't know whatever i should play the role of the innocent or the not-so-innocent. (i process so much nonsense in my head each day.) so i erm... in all loserism and pacifism, willed her to hurry up in my head. it didn't work though. it killed me to see her drinking coffee/koping icecream/staring into space while cleaning up while i was internally going "HELLO WE'RE ON A TIGHT SCHEDULE HERE!!!" so i was being distracted by her slowness while stressing over counting the money and recording the accounts (omg, MOST STRESSFUL thing ever.), i took longer than i should counting the money. and she erm, looked genuinely disappointed we weren't late enough to exploit the free cab after 12am thing. (i mean, WHAT?!?!?!) i am so scared i screwed something up or like tommorrow the entire shop will be robbed of the icecream supplies for something like that. AHHHH. STRESS. from now till 1030am, i will mentally will icecream, money, cookies, waffle cones and whatnots to stay where they should be and how they should be. such is the mental prowess of women. (hear me roar.) need to collect my pencilcase from the shop tommorrow and also inform them about the extremely tricksy cake order (the customer was extremely extremely specific about how she wanted her cake. it is for her lover, so i guess, understandable.) and maybe get a pint or two home.

omg, i should get round signing up for the dance lessons in prep for dec holidays. totally excited. childhood dream, you know. but no one wants to learn la dance/raggae/popping/locking with me!

Week 13b

2008-11-11T15:46:47Z

i am down with flu now. puffy eyes and all. i think it was because i got caught in the rain two days ago. just for a little while, but i am horribly sensitive to rain water. SUCKS. i've come to a stage where i am strangely apathetic about my grades. i realized i don't really care anymore. i think i am continuing only because it is necessary and i am buying time (literally) till i can find a job that i want. (is this ennui?!?!? am i going to be the next alfian saat!?!?!?) i think it is high time that i start looking for an internship. at this point, i somewhat regret not ever having taken up any internships and spending all my holidays in nus on arts club projects, mainly FOPs. but deep down, i know i wouldn't have it any other way. and large part of me is shaped by the experiences, both good and bad, from all these time spent. today, i realized there will be this group of people who will be there, no matter what, even if they get bogged down by the vicissitudes of school and life in general. people who have this special thing in their heart. it's an awesome, warm, fuzzy feeling. and i am very thankful for people like that. to know that some people will share the same inexplicable love for the colour blue once in a year. back to work. just a few weeks more before a break (which i am seriously considering working as many days as they allow me to.) adulthood is a horrible thing. as much as i am trying not to think about it (you know FOREVER 20!), it just envelops me sometimes. the sense of responsibility just threatens to engulf. for the first time in my life, i constantly feel i need to learn to take charge of my own life. it is like attempting to catch a spinning top. it is bound to hurt somewhat and i feel like i am prepping myself for the pain and its inevitability. i'm starting by trying to save up, to make up for all the lost money wasted on teenage frivolousness. for starters, i have not done any shopping since i said i will stop for the month. awesomeness!

oh, and i am too easily influenced by emotions. after watching the aids show on teevee, i was overwhelmed by the need to cry after that. i spent a good 10 min trying to get my emotions back on track. over a mediacorp show u know! FAIL CAMY FAILLL.

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-10T23:54:00

2008-11-10T15:58:57Z

i busted money on a cab trip to school today. arghhh. so annoyed. but i managed to lug 20 books i grabbed randomly off the shelves of the library back to school so the library will give me a break and stop sending me notices about overdue books. two last pieces of work before the school term ends (after 3 pm on Wednesday, it'll be all over over over!) and studying for exams commences. CANNOT WAIT TO GET OVER AND DONE WITH THE SEM.

anyway, while discussing about some segregation thing during tutorial today, i had this random urge to blurt out its similarities to the plot of harry potter (because i am reading the last book now... and have just finished doing so). but i didn't, because i thought i don't know how it will exactly go down with the lecturer. so i swallowed my words back. sucksss.

i swear the teachers are getting more evil... they are milking out every single moment from the sem and tormenting us with readings and essays and tests and whatever not. honestly. where is the love?

Week 12g

2008-11-09T18:25:49Z

work ramblings. skip straight to the last line if uninterested.

finished the last of my shifts for the week. let's trudge bravely onwards. i am going to start the transition to opening shifts. ~~since i've already mastered teh skillz of the closing shift.~~ i kid. i just want to go home to a bright home after work. (aww...) this also means another learning curve to conquer.

wednesday 1630 - 2230
friday 1630 - 2230
saturday 1030 - 1630
sunday 1030 - 1630

notice the transition from friday to saturday? how i am supposed to wake up in time for the morning shift is beyond me. i just hope i and whoever i am working with on friday have amazing chemistry and we get moving home before 1130. oh and by sunday, i would've past my 100th hour mark. (isn't that exhilarating?!?)

and before you think it is just a usual four-day per week schedule. check out my schedule for the following week:

monday 1030 - 1630
tuesday repeat
wednesday repeat
thursday repeat

if you are sharp enough, you'll realize that yes, i am going to be working 7 days in a row!!! and in other related news, i think i have become stronger after starting work. like physically. because i am capable of lifting the belgium waffle machine with one hand now (!!!). previously i was epic fail at it, even two hands also no use. if i keep going on, maybe i will soon be able to lift it up with one pinky and have defined arm muscles (yuk yuk yuk!).

if it interests you, i always do the cleaning and washing up after closing because it gives me immense satisfaction to wipe through the entire shop. for like my self-gratification. i even have a mental rundown for how i want to do the cleaning up ASAP while the other person settles the techie money part. (my manager forced me to do the money part today. I THINK I FORGOT THE STEPS AGAIN!!! GGXX.)

oh and also a large part of today's customers win HANDS DOWN for most annoying/rude/bitchy/whatever-mean-words-you-want-to-use award. HAND DOWN TOTALLY. EPIC FAIL.

but you can always count on cute kids and santa claus look-alikes to save the day.

currently, trying to loosen my muscles because those tw models say you need to loosen your muscles after exercising (i guess strenuous work like LOOKING AFTER OLD KIDS WHO DRIP THINGS ALL OVER/DEMAND FOR THE WEIRDEST THINGS/HAVE ISSUES ENUNCIATING PROPERLY COUNTS?) or it will become too stout and muscular. maybe if i do this longer enough, i will, like you know, grow taller or something. ok la, i don't need to grow taller, just let me be slimmer can?

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have been watching my money like a hawk! i guess some good things came out of starting work. TEE HEE HEE. am making it a point to get my ass to school everyday of the coming week. WISH ME LUCK! loves!

still thinking of a name for my new abode.

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-08T12:58:00

2008-11-08T05:01:58Z

心動心痛
作詞：劉畊宏/ 作曲：周杰倫 / 編曲：林於賢

(劉)黑夜滲透了思念　偷不走微光閃現的千種畫面
我背著傷痛離開　孤單拖著記憶支離破碎

(許)原以為不會改變　眼淚在臉頰上乾枯失去知覺
(合)我的心掙脫了愛　跟隨著夕陽埋進了海洋

(合)為什麼相愛的人卻又為愛而紛爭　現實的翅膀攪亂原本幸福的氣氛
(劉)我有我的過錯　我有我的疑惑 [(許)我有我的] (合)疑惑
(合)藏在面對面的沈默背後
(合)為什麼讓愛躲進烏雲密佈的天空　隨著風漂流在外一天一點的散落
(劉)慢慢遠離的夢　漸漸冷卻[(許)漸漸冷卻] (合)冰封
(合)心痛當初相遇的心動

(劉)慢慢遠離的夢
(許)漸漸冷卻冰封
(合)心痛當初相遇的心動

Week 12f

2008-11-07T17:42:54Z

happy money from happy people co! whoo!

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-06T21:00:00

2008-11-06T12:51:20Z

the law of probability worked! i collected my roll of film today and i have a few nice shots of the fireworks! only a few and a little small but caught at good timings nevertheless! yay! have embarked on a restricted diet plan that involves no as little titbits as possible, no food after 8pm. after i recover from my sleep debt, i will start on running again. i reward myself with a scoop of icecream each day i succeed. doesn't sound very promising huh? but it has been working thus far! lol.

am planning to shift to somewhere else. or stop entirely if i don't think of a good enough name. hmm.

[edit]:
ound a combination which gets us to:
hk for $404. (03/01 - 08/01 or 09/01)
bkk for $177.88 (0501 - 0901)
totally NOT making my life easy!!! need to send psychic messages to remmy to make him come online now now now! if i go to bkk, it means i've already earned my plane ticket there! *GASP* taipei is still SO expensive ($600plusplus). why taipei why?

[edit edit]: i want to spend a day pretending i'm not local. wouldn't that be fun? i can make believe i am overseas!

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-06T17:30:00

2008-11-06T09:35:02Z

i busted my little shopping budget for the month!!! so... no more shopping for the rest of the month. honestly getting a little sick of doing everything alone, but it is more efficient. and i am pretty much spontaneous about what i do most of the time. so...

ANYWAY, i found a lovely little shop yesterday with pretty unique apparels! and i went thrifting again. today i browsed some of the shops at PP with my mom. there are a lot of pretty little shops there! i need to go back there again! (spotted a cute dress which my mom did not agree was cute, but i think it is cute nevertheless.)

so anyway spoils for the month:
- plaid shirt (S$5)
- briefcase bag (S$4)
- hairtie with colourful baubles (S$0.50)
- coloured stockings (S$5 for 3 pairs)
- old skool konica film camera (S$5)
- super old skool WALKMAN! (S$5)
- skirt with cool printz (S$33.60)
- pinafore dress with floral prints (S$33.60)
- light wash denim shorts (S$29.95)
- "love" ring (S$10.90)
- vintage maxi dress (AUD$46)
- vintage teal dress with pussybow (AUD$38)
- checkered flair skirt (S$29)

*sinks into happy frivolous bliss*

scooperz talkz:
also have had three days worth of rest from scooping. which is all very well for me physically and mentally. my arm was collapsing at the fourth pint i packed on tuesday. the new promotion (buy 2 pints for 1 free waffle cone sundae!) is seriously unethical and inhumane to the scoopers. it means more people will get another pint and packing pints = NOT EASY!!! and after you pack TWO pints, you still need to prepare a waffle cone sundae for the person. no strength much? anyway, tommorrow i'm scooping again! have learnt step 1 and step 2 of making an icecream cake. want to get to creaming and decorating!!! doing opening is seriously 10000 times slacker than closing. it is just a lot of wiping and opening only. have cleared 60 hours (= S$300) so far! and it has been only less than a month. sucks that the money will come only at the end of the month, so i am currently a broke fart. (but still capable of getting mg one of the many pints i owe him. just that i don't know how to get it to him without it melting into a mass of... mess.)

anw shifts for the week:
tuesday 1030 - 1430 (over!)
friday 1830 - 2230
saturday 1430 - 2230
sunday 1430 - 2230

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-04T22:50:00

2008-11-04T15:03:16Z

for the first time in weeks, i can happily sleep anything i choose to! *happy* my diet was disastrous over the past few weeks, with all the eating at weird timings. naturally, the flabs are gathering. i am going to have to start watching what i eat. i realized tommorrow is the first in many many many days i am going to making my way down to school. oh dear. i am running out of clothes to wear, need to dig out from my secret stash again. i think i should go do a facial mask and then go to sleep. such is the joy for life!

oh oh on monday, i dreamt remmy was back already! it was so real! probably a sign that i needed some comfort from him with all the deadlines. but it's okay, i don't need it anymore! my deadlines are mostly over! hahahahaha. (aiya, i am kidding.)

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wants to eat: (double) belgium waffle with mint choc chunk, choc fudge brownie (NOT chocolate therapy, i hate chocolate therapy), hot fudge sauce, peanuts and rainbow sprinkles. can you believe i have not really eaten b&j's for super long?

also wants to eat: dimsum (like from hongkong)

also super wants to eat: tw chicken cutlet, ru ai, guo tie, chua bing, ice monster, liang mian, suan la tang & many many many more.... (from taipei)

wants to go: thrifting. (i've set aside a shopping budget for the month. WHO'S ON FOR IT?!?!?!?!?! i really need to get away from the books for a while!!!), kboxing (ge hou zhan 2!!!)

wants to go: HK (H&M!!!), TAIPEI (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

i want to go on an overseas trip alone someday, just to prove to everyone and myself that i can survive in the world alone. self-gratification i suppose.

xcirca1801 @ 2008-11-03T02:13:00

2008-11-02T18:06:29Z

my table is in a state of mess i have never EVER seen before in the past 20+++ years of my existence. today was the fourth and the last shift for the week. i think i have like 5 shifts the coming week. -__________-" OMGAHZ. two of the shifts i did this week were KILLER, being halloween night and saturday night. consecutively my second and third shifts sommore. i nearly died today. it got so bad that today i called for the use of heatrub/counterpain, whatever it is called. i think i am going to rub sommore on later, you know, just in case. my hands are incapable of scooping already. and i hate everyone who orders chocolate therapy. (it is like effing ROCK.)

WHY CANNOT JUST EAT VANILLA? SO WHITE AND SO...PURE!

i should lug my spotlight and channel the heat at some of the icecream, so they will all turn gooey. (what do you mean you don't like gooey icecream? how is that my problem?) am currently thriving only on adrenalin from a combination of icecream, bubble tea and chocolate.

Week OMGZ WHO CAREZ

2008-10-31T17:15:24Z

omgahz, it waz so buzi today it wasn't even funny. we had to play the role of stock takers/cashier/scooper/cleaner/sweeper/waffle cone maker/nanny (cleaning up after 10 million ~~adults~~ kids)/ misc misc. T.T we muz be something of a super scooper!

now i am attempting to do my 3204. why do i see my life passing before me?

xcirca1801 @ 2008-10-16T23:22:00

2008-10-16T15:08:20Z

i've got 10000 things waiting for me to do. but here's a quick note:

thank you everyone who tried to make today special for me in your own little ways. i really appreciate it x 100000.:)

xcirca1801 @ 2008-10-15T21:52:00

2008-10-15T13:39:00Z

training ended today.

by thursday:
- hy3238 assignment
- hy3204 tutorial
- hy2243 ivle

by friday:
- hy2243 assignment

i think i won't be able to sleep for two nights in a row. i hate school. i want to quit it indefinitely.

Week 9b

2008-10-14T09:38:17Z

for the first time in my life, i had OD from b&j's. we all kinda ggxx-ed after attempting to finish all the sundaes we were told to make. tommorrow's hot beverage making. i'm glad i don't drink coffee. going off to watch die hard while eating tori q + orange juice for dins.

[edit]:
i swear i hate school. WTF IS SECOND LIFE FOR?!?!?!?!?! WHY CAN'T WE JUST HAVE NORMAL TUTORIALS. my left hand is sore from the typhiod jab earlier today. FAIL. i don't know how i am going to scoop tommorrow. i really like the dempsey branch now. but it sucks that it is SOOOOO inaccessible. ROARS.

[edit edit]:
i thought i should add... for poor minions like me.

Week 9a

2008-10-13T11:00:06Z

shirt - thrifted
pants - mango
belt - espirit
bag - thrifted
flats - mondo(?)

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lazy to edit photos today.

today was the first day of training. my head's hurting a little from waking up too early. i dragged every bit of my cells out of the bed at 7.10am. i made it down on time, even having a little bit of extra time to da pao breakfast from yakun which i hardly ate, cause it was yucky.

the boss, or happy owner as he calls himself, actually came all the way down to talk to us about b&j and hpco. oh and he is called tk wong. LOL. i was being silently amused. (tk, maybe you are going to be a big boss someday!!!) we had a very awe inspiring talk from him, the kind that makes you genuinely believe it is possible to just go out there and start a business of your own. i don't think we realized who he actually is until the manager of cathay told us later on. (i just did a quick googling of him. no wonder he looks familiar.)

so anyway, after the talk, we had practical which involved making waffle dishes, cones and flower bowls. and also scooping icecream. SCOOPING ICECREAM!!! oh how i miss doing it! i am still capable of making perfectly round scoops! *iz proud* i thought the ability to do so would've eluded me already. so the challenge now is to make those perfect 3oz scoops. (got it exact on my 3rd/4th try! *IZ PROUDDD*)

tomorrow, we are going to have a test on the history of b&j and yada yada. you would think being a part-time scooper was going to be very easy, clearly it isn't. the boss told us that they get like something between 50-100 applications each month. they only picked 18 for the interviews. and from there, they got only 9. i suddenly felt very wonderful upon hearing that. hahaha. oh and all the bbt-like boys didn't get through. so sorry to disappoint my female friends, you guys won't get to see them at any branch soon! maybe they will apply to NUM!

need to clear my workload. i am going to miss SO MANY lessons this week. i felt slightly disorientated. i need to dig out my die hard LCD to watch for film&hist. i am going to fail this sem la.

Week 8f

2008-10-12T11:31:49Z

plaid top - thrifted
belt - 77th street
shorts - some shop in CS
metal hairband - minibits
brown stachel backpack - thrifted
jelly bangles - junk_phoood
watch - taipei
moccassins - hongkong

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my camera was being completely uncooperative! there was a lot of noise in all the shots i took. i really ought to start saving up for a better camera. YES, SOON MONSOON IF AND WHEN I START WORKING. so i decided to make everything sepia. sooooo anyway! saturday was kboxing with mich, ml and xy. 超認真歌喉戰 part 1! we must be turning old because we were alternating being high on air and stoning due to lack of energy. haha. anywayyyy, xy won!!! we are epic fail as judges. hahahaha. we gave scores using our fingers and tracked scores on the back of my TNP. after that we headed to this place in Far East Shopping Centre for dins. the place is ultimate ulu-ness! we tried convincing xinyu who was leading the way not to sell us off because we are quite sure we are not worth a lot of money. before we entered:

xy and mich walks in.
me: eh wait, cannot go in. there's a sign that says the shop is closed for a private party.
ml who was behind manhandled me into the shop because i was turning to leave already.

i took like 10000 secs to put two and two together when i saw my own friends sitting there in the shop. it turns out that the private party was MY birthday surprise party. AWWW. i have lovely friends. thank you guys!!! hob nob is a lovely place with a lovely lady boss to boot. i forsee more trips down already!

ohh, but somethings should always be in colour. namely, food food FOOOD!

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anyway, i collected my two rolls of the fisheye from the shop. i had a sinking feeling when i didn't see any firework shots. it turns out that the firework shots are in the THIRD roll which i am still trying to finish using!!! i am two shots away. but i have some pretty nice shots in the two rolls! of remmy, carol, tk and some happy camp pictures. and also two shots of the arts rag! will scan pictures sometime. i have 100000 things to do, i haven't decided what clothes to wear for the coming week. plus i havent prepared for B&J's training tmrrr. i have forgotten the names of the bosses already!!! i am FAIL. ARGGH. why is the weekends over so quickly!!! off to finish everything, i think i'll get very little sleep today. BYEEE!

comments opened.:D

Week 8e

2008-10-10T12:43:38Z

oversized shirt - thrifted
belt - espirit
pants - some shop in CS
shoes - keds
bag - haji lane
flowers in my hair - accessorize
bangles - topshop
watch - TAIWAN!

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i spent the whole night waiting and waiting for the call. it came!!! okay, it wasn't a call technically... just an sms. BUT STILL!!! *IZ HAPPYYYY* so clearly, i am kinda cool. hem hem. GLEEEEEEE! it is damn weird being really happy and excited but having to surpress it. now it is the training period from mon - wed, 9.30am @ united square. (i can tell from your expression that you are not believing that i am capable of waking up.) i just worked it out in my head. if the pay is at the rate i had back then at vivo, and i work every fri - sun, i can get enough to pay for dance lessons AND have leftovers to save. AWESOME PWNSOME. one more step closer to my not-so-childhood dream!!! anyway, i've been having a very unsettling feeling. i am attributing it to the fact that i have not been officially hired yet and that the deadlines are slowly but surely looming upon me. KBOX TMR. i just remember i haven't told them time to meet. i cannot decide if life is good or bad now!!! i suppose it is both good AND bad because life cannot be perfect in the first place. okayyy going off to do exciting other things now. update laters if i have updates.

i miss you NGTEELIM!!! if you were around in singapore, we would've been planning exciting trips around unexciting singapore for the weekends!!! :( ALSO TK!!! we would've been coercing each other to buy more new things and lament over FAIL bank accounts together!!! :(:(

[edit]:
oh! i do have an update. my dress arrived! it is a red checkered tube dress with a sweetheart neckline! i have TWO red checked tube dresses now. *BLISS*

Week 7d

2008-10-09T15:54:50Z

white top - topshop
blue linen skirt - thrifted
brown belt - 77th street
badges - accessorize (from 10 000 years ago!)
ribbon - handmade
shoes - keds (not pictured!)

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no full shots today because i thought it will be a bit awkward posing with my parents sitting at the dining table chomping on their fries and chicken chops. my keds are my new favourite shoes now! they have suddenly become so comfortable to wear. and they give a preppy look to anything you match them with! the auditions are over. now i need to wait, wait and wait for A Call. if i don't get any by monday, means i didn't get through. it sounds quite hard to get through! for the first time in my life, i felt the horrible unsettling feeling that i think i am going to feel when i graduate and start looking for a job! i don't ever, ever want to graduate now. i used every ounce of determination to pull myself off the bed for HY3231 tutorial at arab street today. omg. i woke up at 8am!

[edit]:
omg, i forgot to mention. all the people who got selected were either good-looking/cool. i = FAIL! not good-looking nvm you know, why cannot let me be the coolest person around at least!!! sigh, so much for the Supreme Being of Coolness. *iz emo*

[edit]:
oh and i finally sent my two rolls for printing!!! i hope they turn out niceee. law of probability please work well on me!!!

Week 8c

2008-10-08T17:04:10Z

plaid top - thirfted
tube worn as bandage skirt - mindustries
moccasins - hongkong
black slouchy bag - mphosis
ribbon hairband - minibits
bangles - online, f21
oversized rings - aldo
watch - taipei!

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my mummy saw the photos and said i am tricking people into thinking i am slimmer than i really am. where is the love? besides, i didn't do anything other than click and pose lor. i have been digging out a lot of old stuff from my wardrobe to wear. i bought the ribbon hairband like 10 million years ago at minibits. first saw them on my second trip to taipei but didn't get them, then saw them again at minibits and i thought wth, i should just get them. but I haven't worn them at all since getting them. my hair looks like it is balding. FAIL! today's the auditions. i'm super worried/nervous/?!?!?! because i don't really know how strict they are going to be. i hope they'll like me! i need my moneysss! i need to meet for a fieldtrip at a MALAY CEMETERY in nine hours time. 1) i don't know how to get there. 2) why there of all places? kbox on saturday hope it is fun!!! H&M VS PLATINIUM MALL - WHAT WILL YOU CHOOSE? if only money wasn't an issue, i would have choosen 426 in a heartbeat. hotmail has been screwing up so much lately, it is getting annoying. FAIL FAIL FAIL! and that project. OMG. REALLY. EPIC. FAILLL! i'm so glad this sem is coming to an end already. anymore of this, i am going to start stabbing myself. if you didn't understand this entire paragraph, it is perfectly fine. it is symbolic of my confused and tortured state of mind.

Week 8b

2008-10-07T16:59:58Z

i just remembered i have yet to develop the films. i hope my frantic clicking during the fireworks festival manage to capture at least one shot of its glory. i am counting on the theory of probability. i cannot remember what else is captured in those two rolls. you know a few days back i was talking about wanting remmy and tk and the rest back asap? i am changing my mind. i want out. not in. the shirts are ironed!!! also i have a mysterious hat from arts camp which no one ever claimed from me. might as well try using it as a bowler hat. i finally have a reason to wear my straw fedora on thursday! yes! oh yes, i checked it out already. it costs S$120 - S$180 per series of lessons depending on where i go. i saw the words locking, popping, raggae, la hiphop and my heart skipped a beat. am i reeeeally going to do it. omg. check rates for hk flights. why am i so poor. :/ everything is dependent on thursday. please let me get through please let me get through.

[edit]:
$426 vs $246. (are the numbers mocking me?)
milk crisis vs political unrest.
which one should i choose.